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I've started this blog around 4 years ago. Its been a while. I never thought it would be so hard to keep writing. Last year, i posted only 2 or 3 things. This year should be more.
Honestly, not much people read my blog. Every day, its around 10-20 people come to my blog. I really appreciate that.

So, i contemplate with myself, why i still want to write?

I'm not intent to offend my readers, but, i'm not writing for them. 10-20 people dissapointment which maybe 10% of them just unintentionally directed here by ads, would not be a burden for me. For money? Hell yeah. I never got even only a single rupiah. Never. In fact, im not only writing in this platform, i constantly write on my Instagram Post, and also on my twitter.

So, why?

I remember, my childhood always been filled by reading, reading, and reading. I read Enid Blyton's the Famous 5s. That is probably my first text only book. I really love the way George was described in that book. Together with my sister we collected all the series. We still have them all right now. I also read many comics. Im pretty sure 95% of them are by japanese author. Detective Conan, Miiko, Eyeshield 21, Doraemon, Dorabase, and many more. I also read BOBO Magazine back then. Oh, so nostsalgic. I started reading news paper at 4th elementary grade. Well pretty much, Agatha Christie and Sherlock Holmes are honorable mention too. It didnt take a long time for me, to start asking, Can i do better than this great writter?

And, i dont know where i got this fact, but i know that Einstein, Or Newton, every genius minded person that ever born, are good in writing.  Am i born to be like them?

 I am a person who really like to talk by myself. I do it really often. I dont know why i keep doing, but it just feels fun. Why not  put my speak-to-myself things on Internet?

When i made this blog, i was reading mystery book a lot. In fact, if im in the book store now, the first book i'll looking for, probably mystery-thriller books. But, somehow these book just too hard to write. My first post was a mainstream one. I remember back then me and my class mate had homework to write on a paper about "Who am I". So instead just writing it on a paper, i make a blog, and post my homework here.

And, i found it to be really fun.

 And yeah, that's why i start writing. Passion. Nothing more. I know im not a left-brain person. I am really right-brain. But, im not good at painting, music, or sports. So where ?

Probably, Writing.